H week

so i am this crazy person who makes a hell week for myself... yes i know. retarded, but hey... after losing all of the 5 pounds that I've gained in the past month in just this week... it is worth it!

i have been eating so freaking good, working out 2-3 times a day and getting some great sleep. also loading up on tons of vitamins... my work drawers are like a freaking pharmacy! But I feel so amazing! I don't feel gross anymore. i have not only noticed a difference on the scale, but on my skin, my hair, my nails, my mind, my attitude and most of all... my happiness! i needed this week to get me motivated for the next 12 weeks to come and i definitely got that motivation! Not only from how good i feel, but from my Cam and his flight plans! and since I posted those plans basically everywhere, including the fridge, everyone asks about it, which makes me more excited and gives me more motivation!

in the next 12 weeks i have 7 pounds to lose and a ton of muscle to gain but I know that I can do it! after all... I have already lost 16 pounds! I have decided that the past few weeks were enough stress for the year and I am going to make these next 12 weeks the happiest ones ever. Of course there are always stressful times, but it doesn't mean you have to be stress. it's a choice and I will choose not to be.

Its amazing how clear my mind has gotten this week and how motivated and determined I am. I know what I want and my mind is set! A big BIG apology for my behavior the past few weeks to everyone! Stress, bad eating, that blasted period and missing my Sweetheart literally killed me and got to me in the worst way. I promise I will be better and i know you will all notice it... I promise I haven't turned into a monster! haha I really do love you all :)

Anyways, this week has been an incredible success and I am happy! Now none of you are allowed to tempt me with naught treats for the next 12 weeks and if you want to talk about cam... i really don't mind it :) 88 days ya'll! :)

guess what everyone?!

MY BEST FRIEND IS OFFICIALLY COMING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am honestly the happiest person right now! It's real! He is coming home! After two years, in 90 days I will be in his arms and back where I belong!! :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

he's too good to me

sometimes all you need is your best friend to tell you he loves you, to calm down and just be happy.

he can make anything and everything better. i sure am blessed! he is one amazing man!

singing

99 bottles of beer on the wall, 99 bottles of beer…. take one down. pass it around.

tomorrow there will be 98 bottles of beer on the wall.

.... i feel like this song is going to be stuck in my head for the next 99 days. 

drunk on love :)

Hunt Family Reunion

lets just say that the hunt family is so great! i love them to death. i was able to go to their family reunion this weekend as cameron's stand in. i went to the last reunion and lets be honest, i was scared out of my mind! i could not remember everyone's names for the life of me and we really just kept to ourselves most of the time. with cam not there, i really had to just be me and get to know everyone. i was extremely shy and nervous at first, but then i remembered how chill and loving their family is. i ended up having the best time with them.

i really got to know ryan and megan the most down there. i have grown such a respect for ryan and we were able to talk alot and he was so nice to me. i already consider all of them family. they may swear and drink and get crazy... but i laughed non stop and am so grateful for the loving people they are! 

noelle was nice enough to take me on a little adventure up to our camping spot two years ago and we found my tree! you see, two years ago at the hunt reunion, he was being a little but head and just kept pouting so i stopped talking to him for a bit haha. he finally realized he was being dumb so he grabbed my hand and took me down in the forest and told me to sit there and not talk. haha. he carved our names in the tree and i loved it! we found the tree and i added a few little things to it. it is so weird to see that and think it was two years ago we had been there in that very spot! not to mention how much we have changed... but our love has just grown and grown with time! 

it was such an amazing weekend that i didn't have service, was in the beautiful mountains and around all of the people that remind me of Cam :)

he gives me butterflies!

when I watch this...

I end up looking like this....

he just gives me butterflies :) i mean how could you not love that face and smile and laugh? mmm!

4 months officially

so we may have gotten word that cameron officially comes home on November 14th...

oh my word.

i could not be more excited! my brain has been going crazy the past few days thinking about the future, near future. especially yesterday.

at lunch we went and looked at a bed set for cam. it's so pretty. then noelle took me through Helen's house, the house me and cam want and we are trying to talk Grandma Susan in letting me rent it for the next 6 months, because they want to sell it. We already have 4 of us that could help on the rent. i really hope we can figure it out. the house is perfect!

not to mention i have a wedding to plan....

lots of prayer and doing the right things and all will work out!

i do realize that all of this is still so weird for some people, but im so past that point and don't care what people think. i know we are getting married and so why wait and have everything be stressful? no, im getting things done now. i am going to be prepared like the prophet commanded haha :)

Quilting isn't my thing, but it's hers

about a week ago, noelle took me fabric shopping.

since she took me to get fabric for my WEDDING QUILT, i think it is safe to say that she approves of me and knows we are getting married haha :)

last night we spent forever cutting out the squares and putting blocks together.

it sure is going to be cute!

too bad i can' have it until January.... :)

Boots

i sure haven't been in cam's room for a long time.

it still smells like him. my favorite!

then i found his precious cowboy boots he bought in Edinburg. 

my feet only fit in half of them, but i tried them on anyways :)

im really excited for him to be home wearing these instead of me!

perfection.

allow me to boast just a tad bit. warning: this is yet another post about love. read with caution.

this man right here...

is the definition of perfection. why? well... let me just list a few things for you.

• he has this giggle that is contagious and is basically the cutest thing ever.
• he knows me in a way that no one ever could. he knows everything about me and still loves me anyways.
• he knows how i work. i am such a different person when it comes to my thoughts and actions. he is the only one who has figured me out without asking and knows how to handle me so that im always happy.
• he just wants to be happy and have fun. no need to have any drama.
• he is the perfect best friend. always there, an amazing listener, tells me when im being dumb, laughs at my dumb jokes, knows all my favorite things and never leaves my side.
• he loves the Lord more than anything, including me. 
• he has the most amazing testimony and is firm in his faith and beliefs. not to mention such an amazing missionary.
• even though he is miles and miles away, he can still make me happy and feel his love in every single letter he writes.
• he never gives up on anything.
• he is always positive and happy in any situation. 
• he is big and strong and unbelievably handsome..mmm!

he is mine and i am his and we are in love :) 125 more days till i have this man back in my arms! i simply cannot wait.

finally caught up

looking for a love story to read? want to know more about me and cameron? you're in luck!

i happened to just get all caught up with me and cam's love story. so if you have a while to read a mushy gushy novel looky here!

another goal down. 4 months early too! wooohoooo!

lovely ortho visits

the feeling of tight teeth with the added pleasure of soreness is not the only reason i am in love with going to my ortho appointments. its appointments like today, 45 minute appointments to be exact, that make me all happy inside and smiling from ear to ear.

45 minutes = 10 minutes of working on my teeth and 35 minutes of talking about me and Cameron and the future with my cute assistants :)

the two girls who work on my teeth have got to be the cutest things. we could definitely all be best friends. the moment they found out i was waiting for a missionary they HAD to know everything! they are the "awwwww cute!!!" laughy, bubbly, silly all over love...kind. see, told you we could be best friends! of course i tell them stories and about how we met and how in love we are. they love when i show them pictures as well, and i have plenty to show! they all tell me they are going to just show up at the airport and hide just to watch me and him see each other again. and i promised them an invite to the wedding! funny thing is... my dentists totally know who cam is! it was a good visit today :)

im in love :)

tingles

sometimes i think about...

his big hands,
his height,
his hazel eyes,
his smile,
his tan skin,
his thick hair,
his strong legs,
his amazing hugs,
and the light in his being...

and i get butterflies all over again.

:)

almost my time

today was definitely a roller coaster. great times and rough times.

first a huge thanks to my wonderful sisters and brother in law who helped me get through this morning's 8 mile run. i really thought i was going to die but they were all cheering me on and keeping me going. i sure love them, even though misty makes us run uphill the whole way... not an exaggeration.
then shopping with my mom, she is just the greatest. followed by buying some new running shoes :)
by then i am completely exhausted and just want to take a nap which didn't really happen because i got into this argument with someone through text about me and cameron so that made me a bit upset, but i just brushed it off.
i got ready and went to Brandon and Kenzie's wedding luncheon. they have got to be the cutest couple in the world. it started out so great and then i had a mini meltdown... okay i may have been bawling but the lights were off and only Noelle could tell so we're good!
after i just relaxed at home and read my wonderful letter from my Cam until the reception started and then helped through all of that. everything turned out perfectly and i was so happy for them! only one more really tiny meltdown but it was all just wonderful.
now i am just so tired and im going to snuggle up with my camo bear and go to sleep. that was enough for one day.

my day will come, and when it does... it will be perfect! only five more months! I can do this! and i apologize for all the cheesy mushy gushy posts today. forgive me, im in love.

missing him

i haven't had a melt down in a really long time. of course i miss Cameron all the time but not to the point of breaking down. something about that song mixed with the happiness of love and marriage hit me and yep, i lost it. i knew it was coming, just wasn't ready for it to be at that moment today.

having a missionary boyfriend out isn't easy. saying goodbye to each other was probably the hardest thing we have ever had to do. i had someone tell me today that he "left" me here alone and basically judged him for doing that, note this person is not a member and doesn't know the true purpose for a mission, but it really made me upset. my reaction? i support him 110% and would not have it any other way, and i mean that.

when you find the person you are meant to spend eternity with, you just know and nothing will get in your way of being with them. yes, two years is a long time and it's very hard, but i know that in the end it will all be worth it. that moment in the airport when i see his face for the first time and am in his arms, it is a moment i dream about. and when i finally get to be sealed to him for all eternity, that is when everything that we are going through will be all worth it.

i miss him, but i love him enough to wait. he is mine and i am his.

wedding?

never did i think that i would be in this position.

not the one where my future husband is on a mission, asking me to plan a wedding while he was gone... for some reason i knew it would end up that way.

but in the position where the family is actually planning with me. i always imagined it going like this: i would be planning the wedding by myself and not letting anyone know because they all think im crazy anyways and then just being like "oh, i already have everything done" when i actually get engaged for real, ya know with a ring and proposal. but to be completely honest with you, the past two days have been nothing but wedding talk with me, my mom and my future mother in law and so far... its great! honestly never thought this day would come.

but hey, im not complaining one bit :) it's nice to finally feel like people know what is coming and trust me and cam! and to those who still think i am crazy... it's okay. i think so too :)

happy thoughts

so much has happened in the past week so if long readings aren't your fancy, you should probably stop here. if not, please keep reading.

friday i heard my sweet cam's voice! he called to let us know when he would be calling on sunday. he is too funny and definitely the same cam. he first called us on his bike and he couldn't hear us because of all the wind. he "thought it would be cool to talk to us on his bike." such a boy, but i love him :) He even farted in the phone... he is going to fit right in with my family! after talking to him i went with his family to the store where me and cody kept racing our carts through walmart and bashing them into each other. it was pretty funny and we made sure to send the videos to cam.

saturday i went running with misty, kellie, scott and sterling. i didnt' die! i actually did pretty good which i am super proud of! i then got ready for a bridal shower for kenzie and finally got to meet brandon. he for sure knew me which is weird but i think he approved. i went with noelle and grandma jolley....oh grandma jolly. haha that's all i can say. then i planted my mom's garden and it turned out so pretty! me and kaylie even did a tour for cam... i will post that later. it's pretty bad haha. we went and saw the Avengers... holy moly that is a freaking good movie!!! woah! I could watch that over and over. Thor is just beautiful. am i not right? mmmmmmm! :) cam is going to love that movie when he gets home!

sunday. mother's day. :) i curled my hair and went to church with my family. then got everything ready for the family to come over but i had to get over to noelle's for cam's phone call!

if you tend to get nauseous from mushy gushy lovey dovey stuff, you should probably skip this section.

i love the sound of cam's voice. everything about it makes me happy :) we talked to him on speaker phone for almost an hour. that was wonderful! there were so many people there and two of his best friends were there and it was so cute listening to them! i would talk here and there. he then said "sky, are you still just turning into a toothpick?" haha i told him no :) everyone put in their little comments about it and then he started saying something but then stopped and said i would get mad at him if he said it. everything he said just made me smile. I couldn't help it! I am in love with that man! Then it was finally time to talk to him individually. Cody went first and then me :) i got on the phone and was like, "HI!" hahaha he just giggled and I asked him how he was and he said, "I'm good now! Im talking to you, you're so cute" I asked him what he was going to say and he was going to say that i was getting too skinny for him. that is not true and i let him know how amazing he is looking. we talked about him seeing maggie and her calling me. we started talking about how fast time has just flown and how proud we were of each other. he was just being too dosh dane cute! I couldn't handle it! he talked to me about how close we are and how satan is going to work on us the hardest these last few months because he knows what the plans are after he gets home. his giggle is seriously my favorite thing in the world and i said to him, "i kill you" hahaha and he about died it was so cute! He hasn't heard me say that in a long time. i just loved how even though we were saying goodbye we were laughing and just happy! we told each other how happy we were and how good we are both doing. i am in love. we said goodbye and i had to leave. i am going to marry that man. he is my life and my best friend!

today at lunch, the song "just the way you are" came on and noelle said that the song made her sad and i wanted her to tell me why but she would get teary eyed while trying to explain. finally i made her spit it out and she said "I know how much that song meant to cam and I know how hard it was for him to leave you here." Yep... I was done. I love him.

anyways, my talk with him was the best ever. we honestly have the best relationship in the world and i don't doubt it one bit. i am marrying him no matter what.

mother's day was so wonderful after that with all the family. I am so blessed!

Cam's email was just amazing as well. he says the cutest things and i am just too happy for words.

life is wonderful! i honestly just feel so blessed to have the family, friends and things that i have. now i just have to quit eating everything in the world and i will be good :)

simply happy

i am happy.

that's really it. pure happiness. it is WONDERFUL. why am i so happy?

im in love :)

i am in love with the man of my dreams who is coming home to me in less than 6 months. that makes me happy to think about every single day. plus i get to hear his voice tonight and talk to him! it seriously just takes all of me to control myself from running around singing and dancing! i am really turning into this giddy little girl! but i just can't help it :)

i am in love with life. my life. and my future. things are just looking up right now and i couldn't be happier with it! :) i have been blessed!

i just love everything!

hahahaa LOVE ALL THE THINGS! :) (if you are a pinterest user, you probably understand)

days of wonderful

Yesterday I got a surprise call from Maggie, my cute friend in Edinburg, Texas saying that she had just talked to Cam! She was going to see him as we spoke, he is staying in Edinburg for a few days. Lucky duck! She is such a sweetheart though and sends me pictures and videos of my cute boy. Look at him! He is so freaking skinny and looking just wonderful :) I may have been just giddy and happy in every way possible last night. I am in love :)

We have come so far in so many ways individually as well as a couple. He is my example and he tells me I am his. I am so proud of us and we still have 6 more months to get ourselves to exactly where we want to be. 

This bottom picture is of me two years ago vs. me today. I always saw a major change in Cam, but had never realized the change that I was making as well. These past few months have been rough trying to stay motivated to reach my goals and not going back on everything I had already accomplished. These pictures are my definite motivation to keep going.

I guess you could say I am a pretty happy girl right now :)

Two Hundred Day

Happy Two Hundred Day!

Today marks 200 days until I get to see my best friend again!! Time is flying by and I could not be happier! Even though today wasn't the best day of my life, by a long shot, I still enjoyed thinking of all our memories and the future to come! For lunch we went to Ihop and laughed over memories and I basically ate everything in the world today, but its okay because I miss my best friend and he would have wanted me to go all out.... it's one of the reasons he fell in love with me :) I just can't wait for the day I get to be in his arms again. Summer, please go by fast!