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The past two weeks I can honestly say have been the most stressful weeks of my life! So please excuse my broken out face, excessive eating and moody attitude... i just need a moment.

Thank you to the temple, prayer, my family and my Heavenly Father because I am finally finding clarity and direction. There are many changes going on with me and I am not ready to release them all but stay tuned... there could be big news!

As for my sweetheart, I still love him more than anything! We are happy and in love. And here comes the big BUT.... he is stressing me out just a little with all the wedding stuff. Don't get me wrong, I want to marry him more than anything, but I am learning that I just don't deal well with things that are rushed, and I don't see why we need to rush anything. Plus I can't handle the stress of planning a wedding right now, there are things I still need to figure out. I wrote him this week letting him know that we both need to still focus on ourselves individually and then we will work on us together when he gets home and just being happy and having fun as a pre-married couple :) It will all be good and the end goal is still being sealed in the temple, and it doesn't matter when that is!

Today I am going to let go of all the stress and just get my life back in order. Today, I am getting back to HAPPY!

life is hard.

please excuse me while i express my feelings for a moment.

at one point i knew exactly what i wanted and was sure that i was making the right decisions. and now, im back to being lost. i feel like every decision that ever felt right, now was the worst decision ever. this is why i hate making decisions, because right now i feel like i have messed up my life. i know that isn't true of course, but i think about all the decisions i have made and just feel so lost again. ugh. 

i know what the Lord is doing. he is teaching me a lesson and telling me that i can't tell him how my life is going to go. only he can do that. and being a control freak does not help! 

there is only one decision that i am absolutely certain about at this point and that is Cameron. I have absolutely no doubts about him and us. 

everything else though... Heavenly Father help me :(

sometimes the lights go out at the temple

yesterday i went to the temple by myself and learned a lot of things by pure observation. i've always seen the temple as a perfect place, where everything is perfect in there, everyone is quiet and so organized. yesterday... not so much. as I am getting changed, two girls come in just giggling their little hearts away and being super loud. it made me wonder if they didn't know they were supposed to be quiet in the temple. that led to so many people at the temple being pretty noisy and the temple workers being pretty unorganized and things just not going as perfectly as i wanted them to be. i almost wondered how it was that the temple workers were allowing all of this and if we were being disrespectful to the Lord. but as i sat down in the room where we did the confirmations things changed. everyone was quiet, our little temple worker man was seriously the cutest thing in the entire world and would just get himself all confused. during the middle of one confirmation the lights went out, the ordinance was completed and the lights went back on. one kid had accidently hit the light with his head. we all had a good laugh. it was then that i realized that we are all still humans who aren't perfect. we  get confused, make mistakes and enjoy being in one another's company. we aren't expected to be perfect, even in the temple, but there are things that are perfect. such as the Gospel of Jesus Christ and the ordinances performed in the temple. while waiting, Brother Patterson said something that really stood out to me, he said "your life may not change after you leave the temple tonight, you will probably go back to your regular life, but those whose work you are doing tonight, their lives will forever be changed. this is a big day for them" i will always remember that each time i go to the temple and that no one is perfect and that it doesn't matter if you don't say a word, or if you have a good little talk with a friend, maybe even hit the lights, you are in the temple as a worthy son or daughter of our Heavenly Father and you are saving lives!

complete

my heart is full today. 

mckenzie did an amazing job on her farewell talk. she is going to be an amazing missionary! i love her so much and i was definitely touched by the song that was sang by her and noteworthy. beautiful.

i got to go over and see cam's sd card today. he is amazing and simply completes me. i am scatter brained and he gives me structure. i have anxiety and he calms me. i get upset and he makes me the happiest woman in the world. he is my better half.

i read our patriarchal blessings one right after the other today and its amazing the blessings that are promised in both blessings. his is simply amazing and i am so blessed to be able to read it and see these promises come true. mine is perfect for me. cam's is pretty complex, then there is mine, simple and straight forward. i wouldn't want it any other way! 

there is one part i am thinking about. it talks about how i am blessed with a talent of writing and to write down all of my experiences. i have off and on written in a journal, but i wanted to share everything i wrote in there. hence, my blog. i know that some of the things i write in here are very personal and maybe not what a normal person would write for the public to see, but i am an open book and probably will end up just telling you about what i wrote in my journal anyways so i might as well just put it here. i hope ya'll don't mind. 

the lord loves me. life is wonderful. my family is amazing. my sweetheart is coming home soon.

and i am happy :)

slowly

i am slowly learning what life is all about.
who i want to be
what i need to do
everything that goes with growing up.
im learning
i am not frightened by it, although it may be scary at times
the Lord knows what he is doing
he creates a path for us as we step
life is full of uncertainty
i am learning to trust my heart, my brain and my Savior
because with them
i can not fall.
life my be scary and rough,
but all things that are good are worth it.

Church lovin days :)

Sometimes I just have a really good church day. Today was one of them :) not only was I able to go to ward council, listen to amazing talks, get caught up in paying my tithing, finally understand the allegory of the olive tree and have a great talk with bishop, but I also finally got my recommend renewed!! :) temple here I come!!

my immortal best friend.

just when you think no one understands or could possibly know what you are going through, the Savior always steps in. It is so comforting to know that he does care and understands and that he shows us exactly what we need to do and gives us the courage to do it.

things are definitely looking up in my life right now. im just happy and i couldn't have made it here without the Lord, my sweetheart and my wonderful family. life gets hard and satan is working overtime, but God is winning and will be winning forever. :)

its been a great day :) goodnight everyone, i'll tell you about it in the morning! read your scriptures, say your prayers and sweet dreams!

Liebster lovin

Thanks cute Beka for the tag!

say hello to the libster award. don't know what it is? yeah, i didn't either. definition: German and means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing and welcome. apparently i recently received this lovely award :) The Liebster Blog Award is given to upcoming bloggers who have less than 200 followers. Yep thats me.

rules:

ONE MUST :
1. one must write eleven facts about themselves.
2. answer the questions the 'tagger' has set for you.
3. provide eleven new questions for the people you tag.
4. choose up to elven people and link them in your post.
5. inform the 'tagged' of this prestigious award.

My Facts:

1. name: skyler michelle cox (hunt - eventually)
2. i am in love, nauseously in love.
3. i would rather die than give up chocolate.
4. i could be the weirdest person when it comes to emotions and how your brain is supposed to work.
5. i avoid awkward or embarrassing situations at all cost; this is the reason i don't have many awkward or embarrassing moments.
6. i am literally an open book. ask me and i'll tell you. most of the time its all right here on the blog.
7. when i am having a bad day, put sweats on me, give me a candy bar and the credit card and leave me alone in the mall. i'll come back a much happier person.
8. i secretly almost book flights to texas
9. i plan my wedding even though i don't have the ring on my finger, or even the husband in the same state.
10. i am dedicated to my savior and love him :)

Beka's questions:

1. What is your idea summer night? mmmm :) I had one of those once. It would be in the mountains, wrapped in a blanket with my sweetheart, talking about everything and star gazing. Give me romance!
2. snog, marry, murder: Neville Longbottom, Draco Malfoy, Ron Weasley? hmmm... I sincerely apologize for not being the Harry Potter fan you expected but here are my thoughts: snogging... not sure if that is appropriate ;) marry: Cameron Hunt. murder: Draco? Neville is hot and Ron loves Hermione. Yep that's all I know.
3. who is your favorite disney prince and why? It would have to be Beast... not really sure what his real name is. But I love him because he has real feelings and insecurities and gets past those because he is in love with someone who makes him want to be the best he can be. sappy yes, but true.
4. if you could leave on a roadtrip today, who would you go with and where would you go? I would go to Thailand or Cambodia. I want to go somewhere that is very different and that I can adventure through. Cameron would definitely be there right by my side.
5. if you could compete in one summer olympic sport what would it be? Soccer most definitely. I wish I played it. And I just love Hope Solo.
6. what is the number one song on your summer playlist? 5-1-5-0 by Dierks Bentley. I told you im a country girl.
7. would you rather live on the east coast or the west coast? is hawaii east or west?
8. what is that one tv show that you keep watching as a guilty pleasure? Greys. enough said. Love in the Wild is one as well. As much as the stupidity of the people on the show is, i find it humorous. 
9. do you have a celebrity doppleganger? who is it? I don't think so.... I haven't found one yet. 
10. what is one goal you want to accomplish in the next year? Finish the Book of Mormon.
11. where would you buy your dream wardrobe? the whole mall :)

Questions for my Victims:

1. What is your guilty pleasure?
2. what is on your current playlist?
3. explain your favorite outfit.
4. if you could play any sport in the world, what would it be and why?
5. what are your thoughts about love?
6. What is something that makes you cringe?
7. Does your name mean anything in a different country? If it does, what is it?
8. what is your idea vacation?
9. city or country? why?
10. if you could be stuck in one moment for the rest of your life, what would it be?
11. what makes you happy?

victims (you are tagged!)

Ana Dame

Aubrey Herrera

Jamie Tomlinson

Camille Spence
Taylor Dickerson

have fun :)

its thursday

• comfy clothes
• diet coke
• king size candy bars
• a quesadilla
• a blankie
• smooth tunes
• motrine

it's definitely that wonderful time. i guess i should see it as a blessing? gosh blast.

pretty sunday mornings

please excuse me while i write down a few of my thoughts...

as much as i have loved cameron being on his mission and the blessings that have come from his service, it really just sucks sometimes. today i start the count down to four months until he gets home and although that seems so close, i'm about done with this whole distance thing. the thoughts of seeing him at the airport almost literally kill me. i want it to be now. i want him home, in my arms. happy and in love. but i must wait and we still are happy and in love.

it doesn't help either that all of our friends are getting married and engaged daily. not an exaggeration. i see all of their pictures and how happy they are and again... i want him to be home. i am already tired of just planning ours, i want to start doing things, but it is too soon and that is another thing i must wait for. waiting is such a weird phase, and according to my patriarchal blessing, patience is a virtue i have... guess i should use it.

me and cam talk a lot about how hard satan is working on us. and it is noticeable. this week especially i just wanted to run away and hide from him! but the Lord is always there helping us and getting us through. we will do great things and we are way too strong for satan to break us. plus with a man like cam to lean on, i shouldn't have any fear.

i didn't get his letter this week, which is actually humbling. as much as i needed it, the lord knows what he is doing and it will come at the right time.

my race is in two weeks, which is crazy to think about but i am actually pretty excited! yesterday's run was pretty good and i feel like I am accomplishing so much.

life is good. and patience is a virtue.

snaps for sky

so....

• I went to bed at 8:25 last night
• Managed to forget my future father-in-law's birthday party
• took three days writing Cameron's letter
• spent most of my savings for June in the first 5 days
• keep forgetting to take a book over to my sister's house
• completed 3 meltdowns
• have no clean workout clothes, let alone regular clothes
• forgotten where I put my debit card
• and have perfected the "homeless" look

i would say im doing pretty great don't you think? let's be positive here, at least i am still alive!

being blunt.

just to be clear,

i AM cameron james hunt's GIRLFRIEND.

thank you for all of your concerns, but opinions can be kept to yourself and i will continue being happy as, CAMERON'S GIRLFRIEND.

thanks much :)

tagged?

Pretty sure it took me like a year to see that I was tagged but okay sure here we go!

the rules

-Post these rules

-Post a photo and eleven random things about yourself

-Answer the questions provided by the one who tagged you

-Create eleven new questions for the people you tag

-Contact those you choose and let them know they've been tagged

Well here is me... and Kayt. no we aren't sisters, but we may just look a bit similar.

What isn't random about me?

i eat cinnamon rolls with ketchup, or really anything for that matter.

(i apologize for the disgusted look on your face for those who didn't know)

my eyes change shades of blue.

i have a fear of sick people. not a phobia, just a fear.

i have this strange obsession with quesadillas.

i am in love with a texas missionary who could pass for a giant, but im pretty sure you already knew that.

i may or may not be already planning my wedding

i can't sleep in no matter how much i try. and i will always blame it on the minions.

i am a byu dropout. yes, i suck at being focused for school, but i would rather be a wife, doing wifey things that turn into mommy things.

i make a car payment that is probably the same amount as your house. its fine, she's cute. im learning

sparkles are definitely my best friend. give me all of them.

sometimes i can be a major heartbreaker by accident... ooops.

Ouestions?

what was the happiest moment of your life? it WILL be when i get married, but for right now, it was the day i got my promise ring.

who is the most important person in your life and tell me about them. this one is basically a given, and you all know him very well if you have read this blog here at all. it is my sweet cameron hunt. and if you want to get to know him, click on his picture on the blog.

what is your earliest memory? mrs. poi, i just remember that i loved her.

dogs or cats? dog

what is your dream job? to be honest, being a wifey and mommy. that job is hard enough and so rewarding.

if you could go bac and change anything in your past would you? if so what would it be? if i could guarantee that everything would end up exactly how it is right now, then i would have listened to my mom more, but i couldn't ask for anything more than i have right now.

if you could have a $10,000 shopping spree to one store, which store would it be and how long would it take you to spend it all? well it would probably be the nike store in vegas and it would probably only take me about a half an hour to spend each penny.

what are the most important traits in a man in your opinion? being a gentleman and classy. humility and love for everyone. basically just being cameron.

what's the worst advice you have ever taken? just do it.

first kiss story: well we kissed in the back of my car on our way home from lagoon... not very romantic at all. and super weird.

what would you do if you found out the internet was being completely shut down? print my blog and then write a book. and probably have a few melt downs here and there.

im tagging YOU!

Jamie Tomlinson

Jamie Hawkins

Bronte

Becca Campbell

And here are your questions!

What is something your mom taught you that has always stuck with you?

Who is your biggest inspiration? why?

When you were little, what did you want to grow up to be?

Do you have a favorite childhood memory? tell us about it!

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go and what would you be doing?

What is your weirdest quirk? 

What are you most known for?

If you could relate yourself to any disney character, who would it be? why?

Are you a seafood person? If so, what is your favorite?

You have 5 seconds to grab something and run out of the house, never to go back in, what do you grab?

What is your favorite hobby?

enjoy! :)

vs angel?

summer bikini body here i come!

follow me on my journey here.

disclaimer: the first two weeks are summaries, but after that it is my daily and weekly thoughts as i continue on my journey to a better me :)

That moment when...

It is that exact moment when you are hiding under your covers from the world and realize why.

I am a lazy... idiot.

I am not doing anything with my life. It seems like I am, and I can justify it in every way possible. But the truth is, I have been hiding from all the hard things in life. All the things that mean hard work and dedication have to be involved. I was simply just existing, not living. Sometimes I can be real stupid.

One of my favorite parts in Despicable Me is when Gru has a thought and says, "Light Bulb." That is exactly how I feel. Not only am I letting myself slack off and am turning into this depressed person, who is definitely not me, I am basically letting my future pass me by. I want to live my life with no regrets, and I am filling up a bucked full of them! This isn't me. And it won't be me.

Wow, I feel better already! I might even clean my room now!

private thoughts?

I never thought I would feel like this. As crazy and weird as it may sound, I really do love sharing my life with the world.

But it's days like today that make me want to change this blog of a journal to PRIVATE. 

Not that I have any idea how to do that or really if I even want to, but drastic times cause for drastic measures right? Or is that even what the saying really is? Either way, I wish we could say what we think and feel and not have it effect everything around us and make the world come crumbling down. it's lame.

pet peeve?

Want to know the worst response in the world??

COOL!!!


Holy oh my kill me!


Okay lets be more specific. I don't mind the word when it is used to describe something that you are really, genuinely excited about like, "Oh my that is so cool!!", but when used as a response, most of the time I see it as sarcastic and something to say when you really don't care about what the other person is saying like. For example if I was to say to someone, "yeah they are really having a great time!" and they respond back, "cool!!" What the heck is that supposed to mean? See... it's pure dumb.


Yuck.

blaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

growing up sucks.

period.

So I heard this quote from a cute niece of mine and I think I will direct it to someone specific,

Dear life,
I don't hate you.
I just hope your next period comes,
in a shark tank.
love me

:)

Heavenly Father loves me.

I left work five minutes early because I had to go grocery shopping and get dinner ready for when Tazz gets home from the Temple. I hit the freeway and was on my way home pretty fast because there wasn't too much traffic. I usually take the PG exit but for some reason I didn't get over to the lane to exit. I could have but didn't so I missed it. I would just get off the Lindon exit now. Once I passed the PG exit the traffic slowed way down. I saw the police cars race past and thought I would be stuck forever. It moved slowly, but kept moving. I finally got to the exit, after really only about three minutes, where there was no crash, nothing holding up traffic and it was now moving smoothly. Dumb. So I get off the exit and it is heavy traffic on the streets so it still takes me a while to get through. I could have taken a back road that would have been faster, but I decided not to and made it up to the intersection by Albertsons. I turned onto State Street and then made it home. Gosh that took forever. I went inside and grabbed some money, checked the mail and headed back to state street to go to Albertsons. I reached the intersection by Kneaders and noticed the police men directing traffic. I looked towards Albertsons and there had to be about 6 Ambulances, firetrucks and a billion police cars. They were shutting down half of state street too. It looked bad but I really couldn't see all that was happening....

Thats when it hit me. If I had taken the PG exit or the back roads, possibly just used my card instead of getting money, or even not checked the mail, I would have been right in the middle of what had happened. I missed it by a matter of minutes. The Lord is really looking out for me and my family. It was even better that I knew my parents were safe, Tazz was safe at the Temple and non of my loved ones would have been in the area.

That moment when you could have gotten off the correct exit but didn't because you had a simple thought not to.... that is feeling the spirit.