Week One
I thought I had all the confidence about myself and was okay with how I look and feel, but after a long needed vacation to St. George with my best friend, I quickly found out how self conscious I am of my weight and how I look. I hid underneath the baggy shirts and sweatshirts until our trip into Victoria's Secret. I tried on my first bikini and it was then that I realized what I am doing to myself. I was immediately sad and didn't want anyone to see me like that. This isn't the body or feeling I want. So I decided I would make a change for good. Week one was better than I expected. I ate really good and worked really hard. I lost four pounds this week and I am very proud of that! I may have had a few extra cheat meals but I am still motivated and ready to keep going.
Week Two
Week two is always my hardest. I start having battles with myself in my head and lose all motivation. Monday and Tuesday I didn't eat my best and then began the battles. I fought about what I really wanted and what was going to make me happy. I realized that even if I had a bad day or even a bad meal, all was not lost and I could keep going and do better. I did do better. I was even good during the weekend. I only lost .8 of a pound but it is still a loss. Week two is always the hardest.
Week Three
Its Monday now and I did really good with my eating, but I didn't exercise. I am starting to stress that Im not doing all that I can to loose the weight. I know I need to be patient and know that if I stay under calories I will be fine, but I don't want to get stuck this soon. I can make it up tomorrow. I just have to take it one day at a time and stay focused on my goals. This is only the beginning of week three, I still have five days till weigh in, which some of that will be on vacation, but that is no excuse!
I am so freaking sore and its only Wednesday. Marci's ab class killed me yesterday and I was feeling guilty about the froyo I had eaten and so I decided to also go to a spinning class right after work. Now my body hates me. This morning durring RIPPED, my legs completely gave out which has never happened. They are a little tired but I am still losing a little bit of weight everyday so that is wonderful! I just need to learn how to not feel guilty when I eat a little treat. I know better than to completely erase all of my favorite foods from my diet, but I just don't want to be eating something that will sabotage me losing the weight I need to. I am happy that Im this sore though. Its a good sign. I am just waiting for week four when I can really see the changes that are going on! Yay for all the motivation!
