H week

so i am this crazy person who makes a hell week for myself... yes i know. retarded, but hey... after losing all of the 5 pounds that I've gained in the past month in just this week... it is worth it!

i have been eating so freaking good, working out 2-3 times a day and getting some great sleep. also loading up on tons of vitamins... my work drawers are like a freaking pharmacy! But I feel so amazing! I don't feel gross anymore. i have not only noticed a difference on the scale, but on my skin, my hair, my nails, my mind, my attitude and most of all... my happiness! i needed this week to get me motivated for the next 12 weeks to come and i definitely got that motivation! Not only from how good i feel, but from my Cam and his flight plans! and since I posted those plans basically everywhere, including the fridge, everyone asks about it, which makes me more excited and gives me more motivation!

in the next 12 weeks i have 7 pounds to lose and a ton of muscle to gain but I know that I can do it! after all... I have already lost 16 pounds! I have decided that the past few weeks were enough stress for the year and I am going to make these next 12 weeks the happiest ones ever. Of course there are always stressful times, but it doesn't mean you have to be stress. it's a choice and I will choose not to be.

Its amazing how clear my mind has gotten this week and how motivated and determined I am. I know what I want and my mind is set! A big BIG apology for my behavior the past few weeks to everyone! Stress, bad eating, that blasted period and missing my Sweetheart literally killed me and got to me in the worst way. I promise I will be better and i know you will all notice it... I promise I haven't turned into a monster! haha I really do love you all :)

Anyways, this week has been an incredible success and I am happy! Now none of you are allowed to tempt me with naught treats for the next 12 weeks and if you want to talk about cam... i really don't mind it :) 88 days ya'll! :)

guess what everyone?!

MY BEST FRIEND IS OFFICIALLY COMING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am honestly the happiest person right now! It's real! He is coming home! After two years, in 90 days I will be in his arms and back where I belong!! :)

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

complete

as much of a long, emotional and exhausting process figuring out schooling was...

i am officially registered and this semester is paid for! blessings do come if you endure! :)

p.s only 96 more days people! :)

singing

99 bottles of beer on the wall, 99 bottles of beer…. take one down. pass it around.

tomorrow there will be 98 bottles of beer on the wall.

.... i feel like this song is going to be stuck in my head for the next 99 days. 

drunk on love :)

the wave

today i successfully curled my hair in a perfect beach curl. this is something i have been trying my entire life to to. today, i am having a REALLY good hair day :)

secrets...

sometimes i do things that make me feel accomplished. things such as going to the temple, painting my nails, thinking about cleaning my room and wearing my bands that fix my jaw/bite. but today i may have done something uber accomplishing. and this may be the secret i have been waiting to reveal...

i am going back to school!

i know. i swore i wouldn't go back, but thanks to the man upstairs for putting it in my patriarchal blessing and sisters who constantly nag on me... i am officially a uvu wolverine. as much as i had a love for byu and the people there... it is an event in the past that will never be revisited and for that, i am calm. it is by miracle that i am even going to school this upcoming fall semester. who would have thought all of the signs would come at once, two weeks before the deadline and i would have everything completed by the day before? not me! it almost didn't happen, but the lord does work in mysterious ways and by that i mean through little Ambry.

what will i be studying? good question! at byu i was in the Family Studies program and i loved it. of course i assumed it was only a degree offered at byu because... well its byu. fortunately i was wrong. they have a behavioral science degree with an emphasis on family studies at uvu. i told you. MIRACLES. i meet with my adviser next tuesday and i will then be all registered and ready to go.

things i have learned about this experience?

• don't ignore things in your patriarchal blessing
• put your big girl panties on and just do it
• don't be scared of student loans
• pray and go to the temple
• don't be dumb like me and get your education

Hunt Family Reunion

lets just say that the hunt family is so great! i love them to death. i was able to go to their family reunion this weekend as cameron's stand in. i went to the last reunion and lets be honest, i was scared out of my mind! i could not remember everyone's names for the life of me and we really just kept to ourselves most of the time. with cam not there, i really had to just be me and get to know everyone. i was extremely shy and nervous at first, but then i remembered how chill and loving their family is. i ended up having the best time with them.

i really got to know ryan and megan the most down there. i have grown such a respect for ryan and we were able to talk alot and he was so nice to me. i already consider all of them family. they may swear and drink and get crazy... but i laughed non stop and am so grateful for the loving people they are! 

noelle was nice enough to take me on a little adventure up to our camping spot two years ago and we found my tree! you see, two years ago at the hunt reunion, he was being a little but head and just kept pouting so i stopped talking to him for a bit haha. he finally realized he was being dumb so he grabbed my hand and took me down in the forest and told me to sit there and not talk. haha. he carved our names in the tree and i loved it! we found the tree and i added a few little things to it. it is so weird to see that and think it was two years ago we had been there in that very spot! not to mention how much we have changed... but our love has just grown and grown with time! 

it was such an amazing weekend that i didn't have service, was in the beautiful mountains and around all of the people that remind me of Cam :)

mrs. deeds

President David O. McKay made this statement: “Man’s greatest happiness comes from losing himself for the good of others.”

And President Thomas S. Monson said, "My brothers and sisters, we are surrounded by those in need of our attention, our encouragement, our support, our comfort, our kindness—be they family members, friends, acquaintances, or strangers. We are the Lord’s hands here upon the earth, with the mandate to serve and to lift His children. He is dependent upon each of us."

I honestly believe that you cannot be truly happy unless you are serving others! Today, that is my goal. Today is going to be a really good day! And what a better way to start it off than with some Daylight Dounuts? :)

my mom is too cute :)

my mommy let me read her cute letters she is sending to cameron... all i have to say is i freaking love her!

the fact that she can talk to him about me and him getting married truly makes me so happy and i know it makes him happy too. why is she so wonderful? i have yet to figure this out but i am convinced that she is a true angel. i am so grateful for her in my life and don't know what i would do without her!

i love you mommy! :)

he gives me butterflies!

when I watch this...

I end up looking like this....

he just gives me butterflies :) i mean how could you not love that face and smile and laugh? mmm!

complete

my heart is full today. 

mckenzie did an amazing job on her farewell talk. she is going to be an amazing missionary! i love her so much and i was definitely touched by the song that was sang by her and noteworthy. beautiful.

i got to go over and see cam's sd card today. he is amazing and simply completes me. i am scatter brained and he gives me structure. i have anxiety and he calms me. i get upset and he makes me the happiest woman in the world. he is my better half.

i read our patriarchal blessings one right after the other today and its amazing the blessings that are promised in both blessings. his is simply amazing and i am so blessed to be able to read it and see these promises come true. mine is perfect for me. cam's is pretty complex, then there is mine, simple and straight forward. i wouldn't want it any other way! 

there is one part i am thinking about. it talks about how i am blessed with a talent of writing and to write down all of my experiences. i have off and on written in a journal, but i wanted to share everything i wrote in there. hence, my blog. i know that some of the things i write in here are very personal and maybe not what a normal person would write for the public to see, but i am an open book and probably will end up just telling you about what i wrote in my journal anyways so i might as well just put it here. i hope ya'll don't mind. 

the lord loves me. life is wonderful. my family is amazing. my sweetheart is coming home soon.

and i am happy :)

temple :)

i have no idea why it took me so long to get my butt back to the temple! But I am sure glad I did!

what an amazing place that the Lord has given us. the trials i went through and experiences i had in the process of getting my recommend was all worth just this one visit. my heart is definitely full!

i have started the countdown. 191 days till I go through the temple and 196 days before I am sealed to the love of my life!! :) I seriously just can't wait to go through!

Boots

i sure haven't been in cam's room for a long time.

it still smells like him. my favorite!

then i found his precious cowboy boots he bought in Edinburg. 

my feet only fit in half of them, but i tried them on anyways :)

im really excited for him to be home wearing these instead of me!

Church lovin days :)

Sometimes I just have a really good church day. Today was one of them :) not only was I able to go to ward council, listen to amazing talks, get caught up in paying my tithing, finally understand the allegory of the olive tree and have a great talk with bishop, but I also finally got my recommend renewed!! :) temple here I come!!

my immortal best friend.

just when you think no one understands or could possibly know what you are going through, the Savior always steps in. It is so comforting to know that he does care and understands and that he shows us exactly what we need to do and gives us the courage to do it.

things are definitely looking up in my life right now. im just happy and i couldn't have made it here without the Lord, my sweetheart and my wonderful family. life gets hard and satan is working overtime, but God is winning and will be winning forever. :)

its been a great day :) goodnight everyone, i'll tell you about it in the morning! read your scriptures, say your prayers and sweet dreams!

Happy Fourth :)

All day I have been thinking back to when Cameron was here for the Fourth of July and how much fun that was! That day was jam packed and I loved it. If you missed it, take a look see here. This will be my last one without him! Next year we will be married.... too excited!

This year has been wonderful so far. We woke up extremely early to go get daylight donuts and head over to Provo to watch the balloons. It has always been one of my favorite parts. Then off to Denny's for breakfast, no one was really up to going to the parade this year. Then we bought this pool... haha yeah, we will get to that in a moment, and went home to get everything ready for the family to come over.

So this pool is 16'x16' so pretty big right? Well we set it up and start filling it up... lets just say a couple of hours later we are still in the process of filling it up. I guess we didn't realize how long it takes to fill up 3000 gallons of water... haha.

The family came over and we had the pool and the water slide up like usual. My family is so great and I am so blessed! Everyone had a blast and it was just so great! Now we are getting ready to go to the Stadium of Fire where I get to see my dearest Scotty McCreery. I may be a creeper, but I sure do love him and couldn't be any more excited! :) I will post after!

Happy 4th of July everyone! :)

Race Day :)

The day all started out when I woke up so mad at my dad. I had just dreamed that me and him were running the half marathon and we were killing it, basically the easiest thing of my life. My goal was to be under two hours and I was going to make that goal no problem, until my dad decided he wanted to stop and look at a freaking garden.... yes, a garden. We crossed the finish line at 2:00:09! I was so mad! 

My alarm woke me up at 4:00 am, and then again at 4:05 am, and then one more time at 4:10 am. Good thing I had to be at Kellie's house at 4:20. I made it over there at 4:25 am and we headed to the high school. I still could not believe how fast 13 weeks went. Race Day was finally here. I was feeling so confident and ready to just kill the race! Little did I know it wanted to kill me as well.

The race started and the first 2-3 miles are always the worst, trying to get into your groove and all numbed up. Once we hit that 3 mile marker it was smooth sailing down the canyon. We were booking it! Our fastest time ended up being around a 6 minute mile... we probably should have done some high elevation training as well. I was feeling great though. Downhill is my friend. Out of the canyon our family was there cheering us on, and that was so great. I was now at mile 7! wooohooo! I was so excited... but that excitement only lasted about a minute when I realized we were now going into rolling hills and that I was starting to feel my legs again. The more tired my legs got, the more work I had to do and the less I could breathe. Now all I could think was.... Shiz, I still have 5 miles to go! I kept going though.

We were met by family again just behind Lone Peak High School. I had now fallen pretty far behind everyone except Scott, but I wasn't so concerned about time anymore... I just wanted to finish without dying.  Scott caught me at Mile 10 and we decided to work together... well more like scott dragging me along trying to make me do something. My legs were done. Mile 10 was the longest mile of my life. I NOW WANTED TO DIE. Granted my longest run I have ever done in my life was an 8.5.... hmmmmm. Anyways scott pushed me and even though it was two miles of walk/run/walk/run, I was making it through.

My legs hurt and didn't want to go anymore. The sun was in my eyes. My body was simply exhausted, but I saw that finish line and finished strong. My family all there cheering for me. I can't even tell you how happy I was crossing that finish line. 13 weeks earlier I could barely run a mile without wanting to die... and now I had completed 13.1. My time was 2:14:00 which is not bad at all. This was one of the hardest things I have ever done and I couldn't have been happier that I stuck to it and accomplished one of my biggest goals. 

I freaking love my family and all the support they give to me! Thanks all of you! You are the best! :)

Miss Kylie

I am so blessed to be the visiting teacher of one of the most angelic and sweet girls on this earth. Her name is Kylie and anyone who knows her absolutely loves her! She just has a spirit about her that is admirable to everyone. She loves with an infinite love and her smile will brighten your day. She is slightly handicaped, although I am not exactly sure what she has. She is high functioning though and has no problem with communicating.

Last night she called me asking what we were doing for FHE, because she wasn't able to make it to church. I let her know we were having a dance and she got so excited! I picked her up and she was dancing before she even got out of the car. She was loving every moment of the dance and everyone included her. People are so amazing! I caught her dancing with a boy and when I finally brought it up to her she got all giddy and giggly... it was the cutest thing! She giggled all the way home as I kept telling her how cute he was :) She wore herself right out but had such a good time. I could not be more grateful that I have the opportunity to be the visiting teacher of such a special daughter of our Heavenly Father! I truly love that girl and she is my biggest example of what true happiness is.

lovely ortho visits

the feeling of tight teeth with the added pleasure of soreness is not the only reason i am in love with going to my ortho appointments. its appointments like today, 45 minute appointments to be exact, that make me all happy inside and smiling from ear to ear.

45 minutes = 10 minutes of working on my teeth and 35 minutes of talking about me and Cameron and the future with my cute assistants :)

the two girls who work on my teeth have got to be the cutest things. we could definitely all be best friends. the moment they found out i was waiting for a missionary they HAD to know everything! they are the "awwwww cute!!!" laughy, bubbly, silly all over love...kind. see, told you we could be best friends! of course i tell them stories and about how we met and how in love we are. they love when i show them pictures as well, and i have plenty to show! they all tell me they are going to just show up at the airport and hide just to watch me and him see each other again. and i promised them an invite to the wedding! funny thing is... my dentists totally know who cam is! it was a good visit today :)

im in love :)

time.

it is now 146 days until my sweetheart comes home to me and i may or may not be freaking out already!

but it is 5 days until my race and i am definitely freaking out! not in the way I thought i would be though. i couldn't be more excited to go out and run! i have missed it while i was sick and tomorrow i get to go run again! on saturday i will accomplish one of my biggest goals ever. :) it's already a pretty good feeling, just to know how far i've come.

today has been a really good day so far. letters, emails, ab workout, compliments that were needed, work going by fast and pretty smoothly, not being sick anymore, beautiful day, moving desks... and it is still only 4:30 :) yay for a great day.

we will just ignore shiface.... too fake to even worry about anyways.

have a lovely night ladies and gents!