H week

so i am this crazy person who makes a hell week for myself... yes i know. retarded, but hey... after losing all of the 5 pounds that I've gained in the past month in just this week... it is worth it!

i have been eating so freaking good, working out 2-3 times a day and getting some great sleep. also loading up on tons of vitamins... my work drawers are like a freaking pharmacy! But I feel so amazing! I don't feel gross anymore. i have not only noticed a difference on the scale, but on my skin, my hair, my nails, my mind, my attitude and most of all... my happiness! i needed this week to get me motivated for the next 12 weeks to come and i definitely got that motivation! Not only from how good i feel, but from my Cam and his flight plans! and since I posted those plans basically everywhere, including the fridge, everyone asks about it, which makes me more excited and gives me more motivation!

in the next 12 weeks i have 7 pounds to lose and a ton of muscle to gain but I know that I can do it! after all... I have already lost 16 pounds! I have decided that the past few weeks were enough stress for the year and I am going to make these next 12 weeks the happiest ones ever. Of course there are always stressful times, but it doesn't mean you have to be stress. it's a choice and I will choose not to be.

Its amazing how clear my mind has gotten this week and how motivated and determined I am. I know what I want and my mind is set! A big BIG apology for my behavior the past few weeks to everyone! Stress, bad eating, that blasted period and missing my Sweetheart literally killed me and got to me in the worst way. I promise I will be better and i know you will all notice it... I promise I haven't turned into a monster! haha I really do love you all :)

Anyways, this week has been an incredible success and I am happy! Now none of you are allowed to tempt me with naught treats for the next 12 weeks and if you want to talk about cam... i really don't mind it :) 88 days ya'll! :)

sorrys

dear blog and blogging world,
i promise i am not trying to avoid you.
i actually have a lot to write about,
type is more correct.
please excuse me for just a while longer,
i promise I will make it back to you all eventually,
love a way too busy me.