secrets...

sometimes i do things that make me feel accomplished. things such as going to the temple, painting my nails, thinking about cleaning my room and wearing my bands that fix my jaw/bite. but today i may have done something uber accomplishing. and this may be the secret i have been waiting to reveal...

i am going back to school!

i know. i swore i wouldn't go back, but thanks to the man upstairs for putting it in my patriarchal blessing and sisters who constantly nag on me... i am officially a uvu wolverine. as much as i had a love for byu and the people there... it is an event in the past that will never be revisited and for that, i am calm. it is by miracle that i am even going to school this upcoming fall semester. who would have thought all of the signs would come at once, two weeks before the deadline and i would have everything completed by the day before? not me! it almost didn't happen, but the lord does work in mysterious ways and by that i mean through little Ambry.

what will i be studying? good question! at byu i was in the Family Studies program and i loved it. of course i assumed it was only a degree offered at byu because... well its byu. fortunately i was wrong. they have a behavioral science degree with an emphasis on family studies at uvu. i told you. MIRACLES. i meet with my adviser next tuesday and i will then be all registered and ready to go.

things i have learned about this experience?

• don't ignore things in your patriarchal blessing
• put your big girl panties on and just do it
• don't be scared of student loans
• pray and go to the temple
• don't be dumb like me and get your education

because I am a bad student.

in my world, i can go to school when i feel like it, study when i feel like it and take tests when i feel like it. because i love love love school when i feel like it. but this is currently not my world.

note to self: online classes are the way to go.

i am quite the awful student. Good thing all of my classes for my major are online!

I don't find it that amusing.

Dear Haters,
The big game is coming up and I know you all are so excited! It is an exciting game! For students at both schools, we all have a right to have school pride and enjoy dressing up and going crazy, but for those who have never attended either school and still bash on one or the other... freaking shame on you, and you are bothering me. I feel like the only way you can bash on a team is if you have actually attended that school and have a plausable explanation of your hating. If you haven't either of these requirements and are basing your opinion of that school from somewhere other than personal experience, especially media, give yourself a break. I have no issues with supporting your own team, just don't bash others. Competition, not contention. Many Thanks.
Me

nerves.

update: the webinar went okay if you ignore my stuttering, childish words, and shaky voice. they are just overall awkward and bothersome. its whatever though. i did it! accomplished.
update: I LOVE SCHOOL! my class was amazing, i don't know why i was so nervous. the spirit was so strong and although my teacher speaks like a speed racer, he is so awesome. there is something about byu campus that makes you happy and want to work hard and be at school. i am so blessed. and even though i may have been freaking out about money and not being able to graduate three weeks after cam came home... i may want to stay there just a little bit longer. i would recommend byu to everyone!

last night i may have had a slight freak out slash breakdown. i wanted to add another class at byu but didn't have the money for it. i was regretting buying my car and wishing i didn't have to make a car payment. i felt like i was missing out on college life and wished i would have moved in with kiley. it was just an overall pitty on me moment.
conclusion: i was extremely tired.
now that i am well rested i realize how lucky i am with the job i have, the schooling i am able to do, the school i go to, the funds i have, the learning experiences i have, and the blessing of the gospel i have in my life. i just have to stop feeling bad for myself and do something with my life and work hard to be the best i can be. so what i can only do 2 classes a semester right now. the funds will come and give a little bit more time at byu. my car could really be a blessing in desguise, whether that is learning a lesson or teaching me to manage money better or helping build my credit for later life. i don't know yet but i know there is a reason for everything and i just have to push forward in faith.

i know you just wanted to  read about all of my personal issues and apiphanies but hey maybe you are going through the same thing and hopefully this will help you!

he's cute and im excited.

although i know you are waiting for a big story about why he's cute and im excited goes together, im sorry they don't. but are two wonderful things that are included in my last monday of august.

if you blog stalk me much, you will already know that i think my cam is cute and you would agree. if not, let me show/tell you just a small tidbit of his uttermost cuteness. today is monday. email day. one of the best days of the week in my opinion. this may be slightly biased but i can handle that. so as i sit at work i wait for the number one in parethases to appear on my personal gmail account, notifying me of a new email from my sweetheart. because of how busy i rapidly became i was notified by skype, user: noelle, that emails were here. i always get my email first and i had actually gotten it about twenty five minutes earlier. i read through it. he is so happy and makes me smile with every word. i finished and closed my email. ten minutes later, in the corner of my computer it tells me i have another email from my cam. huh? i thought it was the computer being dumb and just notifying again. i was wrong. after writing his mom, cam spend just one more minute to send me a second email. content: I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) (including the lyrics to the courus of one of our songs). yep, he's cute. i really like him a lot. okay... LOVE him a lot.

today seems to be the buzz of the facebook and possibly college blogging world, seeing as it is, for the most part, the first day of college classes. i am included in the vast amount of students packing new books, binders and red pens. nerves going all different directions. to be honest, IM EXCITED! weird i know and it might wear off in a few weeks but for right now i am ready to just get going on it all and also get it all done. i can't wait to be on byu campus again as well. i have missed the place. i will keep you posted on how it goes. yay learning.

really the thing that i am really nervous about today is my first webinar. i will be training 20 offices at the same time. quite nerve recking. wish me luck and hopefully i don't kill this too bad!

overall... happy monday everyone!

late night shout out.

i know i couldn't go to sleep without giving this quick shout out. today's goes out to a dear friend and huge example in my life.

Suzette Rovelsky

what an amazing woman. she was my relief society president in my BYU ward. words cannot describe how wonderful she really is. i would stand in awe of her kindness and selflessness. she was constantly in the service of others and the lord. she was always so happy and i know she had trials of her own and many hardships, but she was strong for all the rest of us girls going through hard things. she is not only strong in the gospel and what she believes in but she also is an amazing athlete and dedicated to her schooling and helping others. she is a determined and dedicated woman who knows what she wants. she loves everyone for who they are and will strike up a conversation with any one. i do regret not becoming better friends with her but i will forever consider her a friend and on of my biggest role models. thank you from the bottom of my heart suzette for being you and being the example i've needed in my life. i know that you have changed not only my life but hundreds of lives. best wishes to you and your journey that is ahead of you.

week.

This week, although it is only Tuesday, has sure been an interesting one!

Finals have been kicking my butt! Thankfully I am almost done with them! I am done with the testing part, now just have to find the motivation to finish that dang research paper! I honestly dislike research papers more than anything and this one I really could care less about! Ah just gotta push through it and get it done and then done for the summer!! I can't wait for a little break!

I move out tomorrow and back to my parents house, which I am actually really excited for! That will be so nice to be back with the family :) I just love them and they are the best ever! It is going to be really hard saying goodbye to Kiley for the summer and all of my friends here but at the same time it will be such a nice break! Tomorrow is going to be crazy just trying to pack and move and clean! Oh and add a dentist appointment in there!! Can't forget that! Add that to my medical list of the week!!

Yesterday I went to the hospital to get a little women's checkup on a bump I found last friday while trying on swimsuits and she told me it could either be a tumor or a sist, which I could have told you myself. Oh and she also told me that my heartbeat was irregular... like it skips a beat.. I don't know haha whatever. So for the bump they scheduled me an ultra sound which I went to today. The doctor said in fact it is a tumor but he thinks that it is non-cancerous, but you never know. So they gave us the option of doing a biopsy and of course that would be the smartest option! So right there he numbed me up and poked some needles in me and took some samples. I honestly was so surprised at how calm I was about the whole thing. I hate doctors and hospitals and surgery... all that stuff. It didn't take very long. They sealed me up with some tape and gave me some ice packs and I felt great! No big deal. I will say though the numbing is wearing off as I type! They said they will notify me with the results in about 3 days! I really am not worried about it! My great grandma had breast cancer, but at my age it is very rare! But it is definitely an experience! I have always been so healthy and nothing wrong with me so this is a very new thing for me! It aint too bad! :) I just have blue skin for a while from the dye which is no big deal haha. Oh and no worries! I am not telling Cam until I get the results back because he would possibly freak out haha just sayin! I wonder if I will have a small scar... hmmmm.

I go back to work today! I can't lift anything heavy because of the biopsy but that shouldn't be a problem! I haven't been to work in a week because I took it off for spring break and it was pretty nice! Im actually pretty excited! I like work :) I might need a little nap before I go though! Yeah that sounds good :) okay night :)

writing.

Me and Kiley have to write papers... therefore we are eating cookies, drinking hot chocolate, looking up gym memberships and facebook stalking. We are awesome. Oh and watching for thus dear mailman. quote, We are pathetic, end quote of Kiley. The cookies she gave me are making my tummy not too happy with me. We were doing so good... then Josh left and all meltdowns were losed. So we turned to chocolate. And now we are feeling the guilt of our sins and must repent of our evil doings.

I am just now realizing of the true pointlessness of my writing class today. Only the first 15 minutes were significantly relevant. The rest of the time I simply stared at my professor with a thick glaze, pretending to be interested. I was really thinking about if I was to invite him to my wedding or not, seeing that he does in fact know the Clarks. Would that be strange? I was contemplating this while he started at me as he was teaching, thinking I was actually intrigued by his lecture. Im kinda awful. But its okay.

I guess I need to get skype. Because then me and kiley can therefore, "skype." I have never skyped before and I am very excited. On sundays we will join worlds by sitting on our trampolines and skyping, like skypers do.

Kiley just related the fusion of stars to relationships in a very dramatic way. Now she is officially crazy. "I better not be a massive star" -Kiley. haha this conversation is getting good... that she is kind of having with herself. I am enjoying my free form of entertainment.

people I live with...

You are the reason I don't sleep.
You are very loud.
And ignore my texts when I ask you to be quiet.
I am very tired.
And your yelling is giving me a headache.
I love you.
But I'm kinda bothered.
Please consider being mute.

Sincerely,
me

Happiness!!

By 3:30 today I will have declared my major!! :)

I have decided to stay at BYU and graduate at BYU in Family life: emphasis in family studies!! I couldn't be any happier than I am right now!! I know that I have made the absolute perfect decision! I know that my parents support me and also my sweet Cameron will support me as well!! I really could not ask for anything more in my life!! Who knew I could be this happy?!? I know two people! My Heavenly Father and my Savior!! Their hands have been in my life from day one and I know that everything has fallen into place for me for a reason and my heart is full!! Thank you to my family for supporting me and my parents who are proud of me no matter what and thank you to my amazing Cameron, for loving me for me and being the support that I need and being the amazing person he is!!

AHHH!!

Life is beautiful!! So be happy!! :)

Sundays with Lisa :)

A picture's worth 1000 words

Enjoy :)