i miss him really.

its those nights where you wash your car (remembering him nagging at you to vacuum harder), go to bread making class (wanting to make him some just to be proud), making cupcakes (wishing you could have another food fight), watching grey's (thinking about how good cuddling up in a blankie would be) and going to bed alone (only to realize at the end of a busy day, you still miss him more than ever).

waiting is hard. no lie. he is most definitely worth the wait and i will be faithful till the end... but that doesn't mean it still isn't one of the hardest things to go through. i miss him and want him home to be with me and joke like we used to. one more year. we love each other and that will never change.

on a less-depressing side, i made chocolate cupcakes tonight and although the recipe was made up and the tops fell a bit, they were the best chocolate cupcakes ever! now if i can just figure out how to lighten them a bit, then we'd be golden.