better

today i am going to have a better day and be happy. i apologize to all those i was a brat to yesterday, i guess the "chocolate craving time" took over control. I had some pretty fun conversations with my two mom's though because of it, they always make me smile and laugh. but today i will start my day off right and good. and it already has been a pretty good morning although i have only been up for 15 minutes. remember everything i ate yesterday? yes, the whole world. well, i get on the scale to see how much i gained and remember, i have this 146.4 barrier. 146.... hmmmm interesting. i'll take it though! i also woke up to a clean room! guess i forgot i spent all night cleaning it yesterday. i slept in (yes 6 am is sleeping in) and woke up smelling like tanning lotion, perfect temp and listening to the birds outside my window. almost perfect! give it a year and it will definitely be perfect. yesterday i was missing my cam so so much, and last night i had a dream about going to pick him up from the airport...i can do it! 199! thats all i have left. i feel like this will be such a better day.

here's to eating good, clean clothes and a smile for the day :)

a whole lot of...

yesterday.... i sucked.

today... i sucked. again.

it's like my body knows it's easter candy weekend. it turns into this holiday eating monster and eats the whole world!

dang you.

guilty as charged

i have been doing really good with eating healthy and since i started training today i have even more motivation to eat right...

except when you are faced with giant cookies.

i was craving some kind of chocolate and i know what i should have eaten, but the cookie looked so good. in my defense i only ate half of it, but that half ended up being enough calories for a full meal. ugh.

now the guilty feeling comes and i get to feel bad about eating that cookie all day haha. i shouldn't because im still under calories... but it happens.

secret combinations.

i am about to share with you two of the best secret snack combinations happy valley has ever known. this is top secret and am only trusting this to my readers. ready?

one) apple slices wrapped in turkey slices for a slicey delight.

two) bananas dipped in melted chocolate chips for the welfare of the soul.

well folks, there they are. so not only is the fridge at work filled with apples and turkey, and smells like melted/semi burnt chocolate, my stomach is happy. and wanna know the best part of all??

they are healthy! wow!

and the second best part??

they are cheap! yay for small budgets for food!

enjoy friendlies :)

commenting.

if you haven't noticed, it has been a continual battle between me and my blog... we are not friends right now and wont be until i find the perfect template.

also i really would like to go and spend a great amount of money on new purchases from Victoria's Secret. it may be a shopping night.

and if you have never had costco's "Chocolates of the World" go buy some now. they will make you fat and happy.

oh not to mention, i have 120 eggs and tortillas sitting in the refrigerators on the second floor of the building. no worries, just making some good breakfast burritos on saturday.

plus, i feel like shopping would be beneficial at this moment.

just to add... mom i promise i will clean my room before i go shopping, therefore you wont be so mad at me for going shopping

:)

i miss him really.

its those nights where you wash your car (remembering him nagging at you to vacuum harder), go to bread making class (wanting to make him some just to be proud), making cupcakes (wishing you could have another food fight), watching grey's (thinking about how good cuddling up in a blankie would be) and going to bed alone (only to realize at the end of a busy day, you still miss him more than ever).

waiting is hard. no lie. he is most definitely worth the wait and i will be faithful till the end... but that doesn't mean it still isn't one of the hardest things to go through. i miss him and want him home to be with me and joke like we used to. one more year. we love each other and that will never change.

on a less-depressing side, i made chocolate cupcakes tonight and although the recipe was made up and the tops fell a bit, they were the best chocolate cupcakes ever! now if i can just figure out how to lighten them a bit, then we'd be golden.

my outlook on a happy life.

if you are not morbidly obese, workout everyday, are not gaining any weight, and have a man that loves you the way you are..

eat your favorite treats and be happy!

im sorry but a diet with no candy, cupcakes, dell taco and other wonderful foods is torture for me. i last about a week and even then i am the biggest grump butt. that is definitely not happiness. i need my chocolate, my burritos, my pizza and my amazing cupcakes. and i work my butt of at daily workouts so therefore, i will be happy and eat my favorite things. all in moderation right? and lets be real... no treats is not an option.

excuses excuses.

I may have a slight obsession with Dell Taco bean burritos and cheese quesidillas as of late. i have been finding every type of excuse to go and get them for the third time this week. granted it is already thursday and i did work my bum off at kickboxing. i deserve it today too. wanna know why? you see, i just happened to accept to take a call from a formerly cancelled customer and answer any questions she had about SR. an hour and a half later i am left with many questions i have to find answers to and get back to her. she was very nice and we were able to go over everything she would like to... but it was seriously draining! so therefore i think that i deserve this reward right? yes.

oh and i may have dyed my hair yesterday. it is very dark and has a small amount of red in it. i like it much. so different but ya know, if you don't change anything...nothing changes. haha or whatever!

happy thursday! :)

at least i tried.

sooooo... the waffle cookie thing (or waffookie as me and tazz name them) didn't work. It just turned into a big, ugly, brown something. Oh well. I still made cookies and they were really good! Not exactly on the diet plan but did fit in my calorie allowance I think so that is good! But to be honest, I don't miss the cookies and bad foods. I actually would rather not have them. This is definitely a good sign.

I am sore. Finally. My obliques hurt the most but im going to be in all sorts of pain by morning. I love that feeling though. Knowing you actually did something in your work out. I am going to have to work out hard tomorrow because of the cookies I ate!

I miss Cam lots. I really just want to hold him in my arms and know that he is safe with me and that I am safe with him. More than anything I want him to whisper in my ear, "I love you" and kiss me on the cheek so gently, just like he used to do. I miss that. I miss him warm smile and his soft, beautiful eyes. He really completes me one hundred percent. I love him more than anyone could possibly comprehend. He is truly amazing!

It is 9:36 and I am calling it bed time. I want to get in a really long workout tomorrow so I am going to sleep now so I can wake up a bit earlier and do all I need to! Wish me luck and sweet dreams about Cam.

Goodnight everyone!

treats for tonight.

I am so making these tonight with Scott's amazing chocolate chip cookie recipe! Who knew you could do this?! Woot Woot!

All because she forgot her lunch.

Before I tell you anything I would just like to dedicate and blame this experience on Noelle Hunt. Thank you.

It starts out with me and my not-so-good pumkin and squash raviolis. Not the best lunch in the world, hence me throwing it in the trash having only eaten two and a half raviolis. Noelle, claiming she had no time to grab anything for lunch today, needed lunch... first mistake. We leave the building and head to her car. She drives... second mistake. As we are driving we miss the turn to go to JCW's and are left with two choices, a road leading to Iceberg and then onto the freeway. So into the construction zone/Iceberg we go. We pull into Iceberg... third mistake. As we walk in the stench of construction man sweat fills our noses and we find ourselves completely surrounded by manual labor men. Trying to ignore the mouth breathers we order our food. Not much to chose from. Whatever sounded safest. As we order and turn around to find a table, it is now swarming with gross, old, half mexican, armpit sweaty men. Great. We find a table at the end of the restrant, but to get there, you have to walk through the parade of construction vests.... fourth mistake. Each one of them checking us out. Its fine. So here we sit, Noelle dying of awkwardness. Me dying because of Noelle and bad food. So I whip out the camera. Once in a lifetime moment right? I didn't get very good pictures, but it's something. So of course we are trying to swallow our food while laughing. Not a great multi-task. Of course they all leave when we leave. Almost silence as we get into the car. and then.... BAHAHAHAHA bursts of laughter. What a moment. Why do we always get the entertaining lunches? Oh well... happy lunching!

Hungry vs. Happy

I am being really good! I have been watching what I eat, working out and staying motivated. It is approx. one hour and twenty two minutes till lunch time and I need food. My stomach is grumbling. I already ate my orange though. But then there is this little guy that I have been trying to avoid.

Cameron (the IT guy) put it on my desk after I told him I couldn't have it and I was doing good not being tempted by the goodness of it all. Now I am in this state of hunger and it has become a whole different situation. I am drifting into sleepinees, losing all type of motivation. For this I will have to make an acception. I worked out hard and this will hardly throw off my day. Perhaps even give me the motivation I need to be good the rest of the day. It is decided. Eating him would be a good choice. Happy and Healthy eating!

healthy choice.

dear lunch,

you were absolutely wonderful. thank you for your goodness and low-cal-ness. you have made my day. i can happily say, healthy box food...i love you.
-the happy motivated

a continuing love.

I shall make some tonight! What kind? Now that is the real mystery!

and a little bit of NEON...

today,
i made neon cupcakes :)
pictures to come later.
they made me happy.
happier than being a fatty around all my friends.
but the binge is over.
time for a new start.
heck week (supposed to be the swear word, but i can't say it.)
yes, heck week
with mindy ann.
this sure is going to be interesting, if she shows up in the morning.
we will just have to see!
yay for getting skinny!
[encouragement and help needed. please keep me going on my journey to get healthy again. join me as well! we can do it together.]

on another note, tithing was paid, the talk was a success, and kyle's farewell was bearable. overall this sunday was a sweet cupcake success.

just a ps. to those who have questions about the chandler situation, i will only say this once so pay attention. it is over. it was a moment of stupor of thought but i have realized my faults, cam knows everything and we are better than ever! chandler is gone and moved on and i am happier than i have been in a long time. so please, lets put it in the past and let it be. no more questions, its a moved on topic. thank you. i know you just care, much love.

good night.

Today was so great! (pretty sure this is exactly how I started my last post.)
Baseball games and being out in the sun all day was so nice!
My brother did amazing! They killed Lone Peak both games of a double header. Not to mention he also killed his bat. Yes, the bat has died. He hit a foul and before we knew it, the handle was completely broke in half! I ran to Parks and got a new one for him for the next game! They even said they had never seen anything like that before! So weird, yet funny for sure!

Went to Los Hermanos with the parentals. Just love them to pieces! Caught up with some great friends too while we were there! So great to see them all again! :)
Shopping at Walmart with daddy :) Just getting things to make our fruit pizzas tonight and we of course got flowers for mommy :)
Then home to cook and cook!
Oh and you can't forget all the crime shows! I swear my mom is addicted haha
Then the completion of mommy's flower arrangement and the fruit pizzas :)

Now Im sleepy!
Plus tomorrow is a huge day! Mother's Day of course and I get to talk to my Cam :)

He is such a sweetheart! His letter today was so great as usual and then he sent my mommy a cute mothers day card and said the cutest things :) I really got myself a good catch there! :)

hot cereal.

Dear Oatmeal,
I have never liked you.
all my childhood you were my worst enemy.
But today I decided to try you again.
I began to like you the first few bites.
Then I remembered why I disliked you in the first place.
My taste buds actually despise you.
I can handle you for a few bites though,
so I will try and try to like you more
bite by bite.
I am willing to try and make this relationship work.
It's not you, its me.
Until tomorrow,
sincerely,
Sky and her mouth.

You can call me Betty :)

All I been doing today is cooking!! :)
I made these wonderful cupcakes, inspired by miss Megan Abel :)
Then I advanced on to making my wonderful lemon chicken and potato wedge fries!
What a delight :)
and tomorrow has great creations in store as well!!

Pictures will come momentarily... blogger is being tempermental right now

Today's Menu :)

Breakfast:

scrambled eggs

cereal

toast with raspberry jam

Lunch:

cereal?

Dinner:

Lemon Chicken (Possibly Lemon Chicken Salad with Honey Mustard Dressing)

-marinating in the fridge as we blog.

Potato Wedge Fries w/dipping sauce

Dessert:

Rainbow Cupcakes w/buttermilk syrup icing

and...

whatever Jacob makes for FHE

:) mmmmm

Happenings :)

First off Happy Anniversary to my lovely parents! I love them with all my heart and they are the absolute best!! They may have their ups and downs but always come through strong!! They are my ultimate strength and I thank them for teaching me through the gospel and making me who I am today!! :) I love you Mommy and Daddy!

It's Email day!! :) What a wonderful day to hear from my dear sweetheart!! I love him so much!!

Today I will do my laundry!! I have so much it's kind of ridiculous! I promised Kye that I would have my laundry done, dishes done, and my room cleaned by the time she came home today and I am going to do it!! Easy Peasy :)

Yesterday was stake conference and it was so amazing!! I definitely know that BYU is the place for me! I wrote Cameron a letter telling him of my change of plans and I can't wait to see what he says in his email today about it! I know he supports me and this I know is going to be the best decision of my life! I just love it here :)

My family is the greatest!! I love our family parties! Big families are the best let me tell ya!

Daddy was a little tired :)

Valentines Day was the best!! A huge Bouquet of all my favorite flowers from my sweetheart and he sent me a real pearl necklace!! I love him!! Then I made sugar cookies that night :)

 Basically I am the new Betty Crocker... Just sayin :) Last week I made Peanut Butter crumble muffins, Strawberry cinnamon muffins, super good homemade pizza, and yummy Peanut Butter Bites!! :) :) Tonight... Lemon Chicken and potato wedges fries :) Mmmmmmmm!!! :)